What A Day!

Its has been a hard couple of weeks. I have went on like 2 interviews and been turned down by both. I'm
not sure what else i can do. There's a lot running in my brain right now.

Thanksgiving is next Thursday one of my favorite holiday's. I miss it with my family but i love being at home for thanksgiving and not missing the special service at our church Tuesday for the thanksgiving service. I like being at home because I'm not being made fun of because i don't have a job and stay living with my parents. I was tired of being made fun of by my own blood. and with others joining in and making me feel worst than i was.  I miss the times with family but now i realize they don't like it when i am trying to do right. I also miss times being silly but i guess those are just the good memories i have now.  its really hard to right to do right when your own family is making it hard for you to do right. I am blessed to have people in my life to help me to do what is right.

I know i have been saying this a lot. but it is getting harder and harder to be patience on the Lord to send me to the right place to meet the one he has plan for me to marry. one thing i don't like this time of year is not having someone to spend it with besides family. i love spending time with family but i do feel like the firth wheel. and i don't like feeling like that.  and seeing others engaged and getting married makes me think when will it be my time.

I'm going to try to blog more i just don't have a lot to say and i don't want to bring others down in my poor me hole.

But i am blessed to have such amazing church family and family and very close friends in my life and i know its just 8 days till thanksgiving and i want to list thing that i am thankful for each day til thanksgiving. and I'm going to start tonight.

Tonight i am thankful For my family (That includes you too Lauren you are family). especially my parents they have been there for me since losing my job i felt so bad not being able to help them out and my mom been saying its wasn't the right job for you and the Lord with send you the right job. i have been struggling lately because of that i thought i would still have a job til i could find another one and was told i wasn't going to be let go because "they" still needed me but i thought wrong.

There's a lot i have been thinking of lately. Been praying for help to find the right job for me. One thing i don't like is being patient I'm not good at it.  so if you don't mind please keep me in your prayers been having a hard time with this.